always loved...never forgotten...forever missed

Two years ago today, I lost my husband, it is not any easier today than it was then, he is always on my mind, just a little stronger feelings today. I will cope but somehow I thought it would be easier after this time, but it is not, so I will cope, and remember the good times, and there were bad times, but we got through it together.

gone too long

I know I have been gone to long, and to busy ( or lazy) but I feel a need to get going, get out of my rut. I am still flower gardening, but gave up vegetable gardening. too much work for one person, and then too much veggies for one person.
In three days, it will 2 years since I lost my husband, and I miss as much as I did. I am not used to being a single in a couple world. I have been invited to go to Nebraska for a couple days, but I will be the only single, and I am having a great deal of trouble making up my mind. If I do not go this year, I will definetly go next year, I have just opened my property tax bill, and wheww, I may have to stay home. I will difinitely be there next year.\
I am ready to be crafting again after so many years, I going to play with making greeting cards, and scrapbooking. and making little things for my house.
I will write more tomorrow, am going out to dinner with friends, single lady friends..

Is spring here?

We have signs of spring, but March is sneaky, so I am not getting my hopes up. There are buds on the new lilac bushes, that were given to me as a memorial to Jim,(my late husband). He loved lilacs, he would go out to our old bushes on pick bouquets and put them on table. This is the only time he picked flowers, he loved the smell of them. These are new lilacs, they are suppose to bloom from spring to fall. I am looking forward to seeing what they do.
I am taking Water Aerobics, at the Metro Center. a gym with all facilities. It is a hard workout but fun, and meeting new people is fun. After Aerobics, we use the whirlpool heated tub, that is awesome. Now if I go the weight room and couple days and week and follow up with walking and use my stationary bike, I should start seeing results, now for the hard part. doing these things at a regular basis. I am determined.
I am eating mostly chicken, fish, and turkey, but today I am going to have old fashioned pot roast. Yum.
In a couple weeks, I am going to have a new experience, I am going to drive to Maryland, accompanied by my son, I have never driven 14 hour before, I think I am going to take it in two days. I can do it, but itis a little scary for me, but I can't be wimp.
Well, going to finish spring house cleaning my room. See ya!

spring?

It feels like spring, but mother nature is just playing with us, isn't she?
I feel like I would like to plant seeds, and bulbs, but, I know, I can't, so I guess I will plan on what I want to plant.
It is almost the weekend, and lately I like to hibernate on the weekend, and I probably should not, but I love my home, and I do not always do anything useful. I may lay around watching tv, or clean, cook, or read. I just enjoy being home, and almost always by myself. There are thoughts around me, from friens, that I spend too much time by myself, but what else should I do. I am alone.!! I am not feeling sorry for my self just a statement of fact.
Maybe I need to start a couple fun projects like doing my scrapbooking, teaching myself jewelry making. I do need to learn more about how to use the computer and I could improve my blog, by putting music on it. What I am working on is getting my self to start walking, biking and really really get serious about my diet.
What is everybody else up to this spring?

If you do not have a job, you will get bored??

That is what people tell me, well I do not work, and I do think I have time to work. I help my niece out once in a while and watch her 2 little ones, I do stuff around the house, go out to breakfast with friends once a week, and this week, I am busy helping my son. My son( the one with disabilities and brace on his leg)fell and broke his wrist on friday nite, orthopedic doctor was out of town, so emergency room dr. and male nurse fixed him up with a splint for the weekend, and as it was a seriously nasty break, told us to get in touch with ortho dr. Monday, well we did. So I spent Monday(he does not drive) taking to the hospital for tests, dr. to make sure he can have surgery, back to the hospital to get checked in for wrist surgury. This morning took him to hospital for surgury, waited for hours, till he was done, on the way home, stopped to pay insurance bill, fill prescriptions for my son, antibiotic and pain pills. and then took him to my house, and got him comfortable. He still does not have a cast, so next Monday, I take him back to dr. and get cast put on.
so now I am behind on work on the house, bills, and the snow is melting so I have to make sure basement is clear, in case we get water in basement.
So my question is, where is this time to get bored???

February

Here it is February and I am buried under snow, ice and surrounded in cold cold weather. I stay inside and stay warm( as warm as I can, with gas prices). I am doing winter activities, reading, cleaning out stuff, jigsaw puzzles, scrapbooking, and playing on the internet, and soon I am going to plan what I can do about changing flower gardens around.
I am alone alot, and sometimes it is very hard, and other times, I am getting to enjoy it. I do not want to turn into someone who stays home alot and gives up. I hope I will balance things, it is still hard to go out alone to a restaurant. I do not do it often, but I do think I need to work on that.
I also am trying to go on a weight watcher diet, stick to it, and make it a lifestyle and not a chore. My check up was very very good, but the Dr. and I decided weight loss would be a good idea. Now all I have to do is get my sweet tooth under control.

January!!!

It has been more than a week, and I said I was not going to be absent from blogging but I do have a couple good reasons, I painted my kitchen baby blue and I went through stuff and it looks real nice with new curtains, uncluttered counters.
Yesterday I looked in the fridge and saw that I had meat and veggies, etc that was going to spoil, so I went on a cooking binge, roast and potatoes, turkey meat loaf balls, Tapioca pudding, turned the veggies into an Italian veggie soup, that I am going to serve with wheat pasta. My son lives next door, so he has to come over for supper every night(this does not bother him, he is a bachelor, and microwaves everything) except chili and hot dogs with sauce.He can make those. He can make more he just chooses not to.
Today I am putting off cleaning my desk, I have been trying to do this for a couple weeks, and it seems I do not want to do it.
More tomorrow!! I hope. Lol

old friend

Today I connected with an old friend, we have been friends for a long time, but about 6 years ago she opened a restaurant, and she was busy with that, and was busy with many different things. She rode with me to take my aunt to the airport, and we spent the rest of the day, doing errands, and just talking about things, the past, family, and we went to her house and just talked and drank coffee and tea. It was a very quiet day and a very rewarding day. We will be doing this again, it is so surprising how you just go back to where you left off, in our friendship. I guess, you never lose and old friend, really, you just misplace them.

wildlife

Well, I have had racoons, coyotes, rabbits, baby wrens, wild cats, and now I have been blessed(?) with a possum. He does not seem to bother anything, he just comes on my deck walks around looking for food, hides behind my snow shovel and then we think, he moved in the house I built for the wild cat and kittens. Well, now what do I do, do I leave him alone, as he is not bothering anything, or do I a possum eviction? I think because I have so many plants and wild forest garden, they think I am part of the woods(I live by a creek and a large wooden area). I should start charging rent.

Hi from the New Year

Well, it is the 2nd day of the year, and I have tried to keep to my healthy eating life style, I am trying to invent my own, according my to health eating issues, sweet tooth, and living alone. I will admit to a 50/50 tie. I have ate healthy, but I have sandwiched(love puns) a guacamole burger and fries, but on the whole, a good start. I am not discouraged. I have used my new waffle maker, ate one, grandson ate the rest. I am sure with a little research, I could make the waffles a healthy meal choice.
My family has all gone back to their respective homes, and that is normal, I miss them, but this is life.
Now I have to get myself over to the center for my walking and machine work. This is challenge because I want to stay in my warm house and not go out and freeze. I must do it though, okay, I will try.
I hope to paint the wall between my counter and cupboards this week, first I must remove wall paper, and then paint, I hate painting, but this must be done,
Stay healthy, see ya later.