time and cancer

Time, what a small word but what a large concept. I have come to realize that we think we have alot of it(time) but we do not. My husband is diagnosed with bladder cancer, and it aggressive. When he had symptoms it had already progressed from bladder to prostrate, liver and lungs. He is starting chemo, hopefully it will delay the progression and make him more comfortable than he is.
I go from denial, to optimism, to being to tired to think of how to feel. I am trying to concentrate on my gardens and clutter busting to keep busy when I am not helping him. Sometimes it works and sometimes it doesn't. I must keep trying and I will try to get my spirits up. try try try
One of the things that confuse me is that people ask me - How are You? I say fine, what am I suppose to be, I am not sure. I think they feel that I should be mourning him already but that is silly, I feel I should be enjoying his company and making the best of it. The sadness can come later. At least, I am trying to keep it for later.
I also am going to rename this blog and eliminate my other one. any suggestions!! The other blog is glory 2001, my internet name and the other blog is name is part my maiden name - Wyatt and part married name Christian. Which should I keep or eliminate or come up with a new name.

I am back

I am back with a short note, to say my computer has been acting goofy, so we sent it to our friend who fixed it, so I will try to be on here more(again)
I am also spring house cleaning, so this note will be short, two rooms down, and 5 to go. Then to my basement and to my son's basement(we own his house, and my crafts and antiques are there. I am downsizing! Oh okay, I will try, I am the original packrat. The two rooms I have done look so good, I think I am actually going to get it done this time.

good weather

Yesterday and today have been sunny, still a little chilly, but a small sign that spring may be coming. It is a beautiful day today, kinda windy, but it is better than all that snow we have this winter.
I went to curves today, and came home and started to get a little organized. I am going to start by project for my daughter's old room, but I am going to just do a little everyday, and not wear myself (and my arthritic neck and back)out. I am going to keep trying to get organizing ideas for the room. My problem is that I DO NOT LIKE TO THROW THINGS AWAY. There I have admitted it, I am my grandmother Wyatt's grandaughter, because I am a packrat. I will start small and work my way up to throwing stuff away, or giving it away.
I am also going to start planning my veggie and flower gardens for this year. I love love love to do that.
Well, more tomorrow.

I am back

I have been lazy and not blogging lately. I will try in the future to be better. All I have been doing is reading, facebook, and games on the computer. I have so much to do that I guess, I just can't get going.
I have been having trouble sleeping because of my osteoarthritis in my neck. It cause severe pain when laying down, and it is very hard to sleep sitting up.
I need to get going spring is coming, and I need to redo my daughters room, which has become a toy room for the grandkids, who are not 11, 12, and 14 so they do not really play with the toys anymore. I am going to put a daybed, with a trundle bed underneath, in the room, and on the other side, an spot where I can do greeting cards and scrapbook. I will use the double closet for supplies, instead of toys. It seems as if talking about it doesn't accomplish much.
I will try to write in here more often, hopefully more interesting. Any ideas?

spring gardens

I just talked about spring and gardens yesterday, I got in the mail today, two flower and veggie catalogs, and one email from a company. I am ready!
I also got a new book called Shadows of Lancaster written my Mindy Starns Clark. I read her other book called Whispers of the Bayou. A very good book, I hope this one is equally good.

What is everybody up to

Hi there, I am doing fine, making plans, trying to stay warm in this cold Illinois weather. I have been invited on a trip with my two aunts, my Aunt's daughter, and her daughter(my cousins, ha ha), my daughter, and myself. We are planning on taking a trip in August to Novia Scotia, and Prince Edwards Island, for ten days. I wasn't going to go, but my one aunt is 83 and I have decided that this is a trip that I should not miss. It should be great.

Also what is everybody else reading or listening to? I love all books, just started a Janet Evonivich book, a couple Nora Roberts, and looking for new books. I love all music, but I thrive on Bon Jovi, Big and Rich, and Broadway(I know, what a combination.) I love all country, bluegrass, pop, etc.

New Year

Well, I will try this again, I just wrote a log blog, but my internet provider decided to kick me off and it took me an hour to get back on.
Well, here it goes again. We had a great Christmas, my daughter and her kids came back from Maryland, and between sharing her kids with her ex(they are friendly)and their friends from Springfield, Ill. where they used to live. we had a great two weeks with them. Christmas Eve was with our son Eric(his son was with his mom) and then home for Christmas, it was nice. Eric went with his girlfriend for Christmas day, so we had a mini Christmas the next Sunday(that is when his came home from his mom's. I am getting use to this split holidays, you have to go with the flow. It worked out and everybody had a great time
The sunday everybody was at my house,Julie, her kids, Eric, his son, his girlfriend, and his twin brother Gary, too. So all three kids were together. I was sick, and did not tell anybody. After they left, I passed out, scaring my husband half to death. It seems I had the flu and was a touch dehydrated. It took about a week to recover. There is not much medicine they can give for this flu, just nausea pills, and pills to stop going(if you know what I mean).
So for New Years Eve(our 39 wedding anniversary.), I had the flu, and for our anniversary, I gave my husband the flu. We sent our daughter and her kids to Springfield for New Years Eve, but when they came, they still did not get the flu, thank goodness.
This year I want to accomplish,
finally cleaning my basement,
putting all my pictures in albums,
getting back to my crafts,(which are greeting cards, learning cross stitch, scrapbooking
and many more
putting my genealogy records in order.
organizing and cleaning out my recipes and cookbooks.
and last but not least is- blogging on a regular basis

Now that I have put these goals in writing maybe I will accomplish them, it worked last fall,except the clean the basement part.
I will be talking to ya !!!!!!!!!!!!!!